All You Need Is Here

 

Instead

So you say you’re feeling lonely, I know only what they say to me cuz, you don’t want to talk to me just forget about me, try to protect your feelings. Well I’ve been feeling hopeless when there’s only imperfection and rejection. Who’s loneliest? I only think of all I should have said so I won’t think of what to say next. Looks like I’m failing the test. I only think of all we never did, instead of what to do. Looks like I’m losing you. I’ve never felt this way before I’m not talking ‘bout love, I’m talking ‘bout life. How I don’t really want to live it, just forget about it. When I looked up to your crying face I never wanted to hurt you in the first place. Maybe you were right. Now when I think back to our crying faces I only wish I could have held your embraces a little longer. I only think of all I should have said so I won’t think of what to say next. Looks like I’m failing the test. I only think of all we never did, instead of what to do. Looks like I’m losing you. Don’t say you’re lonely if you left me in the first place. Don’t say life’s hard but then remove the good that's left. It’s hard to concentrate on anything but what I could have done, but I need to find out what there still is left to do to be with you. I only think of all I should have said so I won’t think of what to say next. Looks like I’m failing the test. I only think of all we never did, instead of what to do. Looks like I’m losing you.

 

Come Back

These days feel just as they did before. I guess I’m to blame when you walk out the door. Because nothing’s changed we’re still two separate people. You don’t realize that I want you just as bad as the day I asked you out, but you wouldn’t take my hand. You don’t realize that this silly high school crush, it’s something that I’ll never forget. You mean more to me than I’ll ever mean to you. Even though we’ve left a while I’ll still come back to loving you. To my dismay I find that the same words still ring true. So I curse the force that could force me into this place. My blessing is a curse and the poison is the only cure. I hope you don’t feel as you did before. That maybe you regret walking out the door. But nothing’s changed we’re still two separate people. I just don’t realize why you’re so against being with me. Anyone else I see is just a plea to forget about the way you forget about me every single day. You don’t realize that this silly high school crush, it’s something that I’ll never forget. You mean more to me than I’ll ever mean to you. Why can’t I just see this story through? Even though I left a while I’ll still come back to loving you. To my dismay I find that the same words still ring true. So I curse the force that could force me into this place. My blessing is a curse and the poison is the only cure. My quicksand’s flowing ever faster. The more you wait, the more I lose. No time for fate, it’s time to chooseMy breaths are getting shorter and rapid. The more you wait, the more I lose. No time for love, I’m leaving my fate In my own hands, which hold all that is real. My only decisions the one thing that I fear. Please make it clear, I’m giving this one more shot. Just cut my hope or I’ll slit my throat. I’d rather live in depression knowing you’ll never love me than living this endless procedure of follow the leader. Even though I left a while I’ll still come back to loving you. To my dismay I find that the same words still ring true. So I curse the force that could force me into this place. My blessing is a curse and the poison is the only cure. I’m drinking death forget the rest. In the afterlife I’ll forget my strife, but tomorrow is another day.

Long Story Short

Saw a new face just the other day, another broken soul to enter the fray. I say, “little girl what makes you sad?” She tells me that her friends were treating her wrong. I inch a little closer tell her I’ll be there, but it broke my heart to see her blank stare. Aware of her hair flowing down her face just like the tears as her words sprayed back like mace. I like a girl she doesn’t like me. What do I do, do I tell her I’m sorry? For having feelings that I can’t control. Long story short we don’t talk anymore. What do you tell a fractured heart fool when you know it won’t get better and the world is cruel? I’ve been told that a saint never lies but saving a soul is well worth a try. I like a girl she doesn’t like me, What do I do do I tell her I’m sorry? For having feelings that I can’t control. Long story short we don’t talk anymore. There was that girl again well this time around she hasn’t got any friends. My paranoia’s gonna get my mind fried. Look at the bright side this time she didn’t cry. I like a girl she doesn’t like me. What do I do do I tell her I’m sorry? For having feelings that I can’t control. Long story short we don’t talk anymore.

 

Too Fast

Always trying with someone. Love is never right for me, I don’t know who I can truly be. Vehicle for you to get what I wanted, I never wanted to hurt you. And that’s what you intended to do. Open up your eyes, open up completely, so you can truly see. And open up your heart, so you can see what you did. You can see what you did to me. I’m moving much too fast, forgetting my meaning. I know I’m gonna crash, losing all feeling. It always ends this way who I love, and who I choose to call my friends. It’ll happen again, I’ll pretend that it’s okay. It’s not like I ever meant anything anyway. Open up your eyes, open up completely, so you can truly see. And open up your heart, so you can see what you did. You can see what you did to me. I’m moving much too fast, forgetting my meaning. I know I’m gonna crash, forget all the grieving. Why should I be something special? I’m told many things that couldn’t be farther from each other. Told that I should have a lover. Those who speak do not act, those who act do not think, but I’m still thinking of them. Open up your eyes, open up completely, so you can truly see. And open up your heart, so you can see what you did. You can see what you did to me. I’m moving much too fast, forgetting my meaning. I know I’m gonna crash. Forgetting my life, forgetting you.

Off Limits

Why? Why do I know it’s too late? I think I’ve already fallen, but I know that there’s no fate. I know that you don’t love me, and I know that I can’t love you. But that won’t stop my heart from trying to bleed me through. When you walk up to me I think of what we could be, but I think that I’m too far gone. A futile reaching towards you, the gentle brush of her hair. Another round of rejection, that’s the thing that scares me the most. I know that you’re off limits, a one way ticket to hell. I know that you're off limits, just one more minute and I’ll sell my soul. Everything else belongs to you. There’s no hope in tomorrow, the days are all the same. Sometimes I see your face, others I think of your name. No more sorrow in a dream where I am free. You’ll be right there with me, but in reality you’re just so far away. Another day. I know that you’re off limits, a one way ticket to hell. I know that you're off limits, just one more minute and I’ll sell my soul. Everything else belongs to you. I’d say that I’d love you until I’m dead, but I’m already halfway there. These scars I’m sure they show through. I only am because of you. Why do I know that it’s too late? I think I’ve already fallen, but I know that there’s no fate.

 

Who I Am

I’m not quite sure how to begin. My life is a failure and I’m living it with a grin. I asked her out without a doubt, she said she didn’t want to be that close to me. Well now I’m beginning to see. Here we go again, another reason to make it end. With all my strength I’ll keep fighting on. And with it I will send my love to you, we’ll make it through. Cuz that’s just who I am. Who I am.That's just who I am. Why didn’t I see it coming? My band broke up but the sky is still sunny. Sure I might be broke, but I still have my voice. And that’s all that really matters, when all your dreams have been shattered. Here we go again, another reason to make it end. With all my strength I’ll keep fighting on. And with it I will send my love to you, we’ll make it through. Cuz that’s just who I am. Who I am. That's just who I am. I wish school would go away. Another project every single day. I see you walking through the hall. I still love you and that’s my downfall. I guess I’m my own man, and with it my own band. Feels like I’m running through quicksand. Here we go again, another reason to make it end. With all my strength I’ll keep fighting on. And with it I will send my love to you, we’ll make it through. Cuz that’s just who I am. Who I am. That's just who I am. Here we go again, nothing should ever make this end. Put down the knife and keep fighting. Being alone won’t help the pain you feel, but what if this pain it wasn’t real? And that's the deal. That’s just who I am.

Late Night Cigarettes

Started off with screaming. Now she’s all alone in her room. Her parents break a locked door, so they can keep her bleeding. Doesn’t matter that she does the best she can. Her parents think she only wants a one night stand. She won’t stand for this anymore. So now she’s crying out but everyone is deaf. There's no one left to cauterize her, sympathize with all the ways that she's been abused. A temporary escape from the man in black. There's no way that she could ever go back. So sad that society sees nothing wrong ‘cause the torturer gave her birth all along. I see the way you shake, I see right through your bloodshot eyes. No more tears will come. No more tears will run down your face. Started off just talking. Now I’m next to her watching her glow. Snuck in through her window, so I could keep her breathing. I lay awake all night just to fight it, the urges to fall asleep which is no easy feat. She never plans to wake up. Well I want to change all that yes I want to change. All that I am is a fly, some guy with a better future in mind while the torturer closes their eyes. A temporary escape from the man in black. There's no way that she could ever go back. So sad that society sees nothing wrong when the torturer gave her life all along I see the way you shake, I see right through your bloodshot eyes. No more tears will come. No more tears will run down your face.

 

Get Better

Wasting days with my favorite maze of a human brain, known as the girl of my dreams. Memories a haze, back in the days where we had each other or so it seemed. Now you’re all the reasons why I want to die, I ran out of tries to fuck things up. So I got a feeling or rather it’s lack of, and it’s tackling the problem taking it all away excluding me. No things aren’t how they used to be but they could be better, so much better. Sometimes I’d rather not wake up from my sleep then things would get better, so much better. Try to convince me that I’m wrong. Cuz I think I could love you if you’d let me. My metaphorical mayhem of speech starts a streak of saying things I didn’t want to speak. To her, to him, to anyone who’s low enough to listen away. I’d like to take a moment to thank the ones who came. I wouldn’t show up to my own game. A pain in the place that keeps me alive, sometimes I’d rather it stopped, I’m sure it will in time. I know things aren’t how they used to be but they could be better, so much better. Sometimes I’d rather not wake up from my sleep then things would get better, so much better. Try to convince me that I’m wrong. Cuz I think I could love you if you’d let me. There is no fate, we work with what we have. A simple date on a calendar can make me sad. No moment can be replaced. Unlike the others before I will never forget what we had. No things aren’t how they used to bebut they could be better, so much better. Sometimes I’d rather not wake up from my sleep then things would get better, so much better. Try to convince me that I’m wrong. Cuz I think I could love you if you’d let me.

Riverside

You can’t miss what you never had. I miss you every minute of the day. I never wake up without thinking of what could have been since you’ve gone away. No second chance, no first date, you asked me out, I want to see your face. Now you’re gone. You’re afraid of getting attached, I’m afraid of getting involved. I wait too long now you’re better off somewhere I hope, it’s out of my hands. Wishing for a change, writing out all your pain. The walls would speak if only you’d ask them what they think. The ground sure hurts when you’re this high up. The ink is running, red and erupting from the pen, it’s drawing what's inside. I’m sorry, I lied. You’re afraid of getting attached, I’m afraid of getting involved. I wait too long now you’re better off somewhere I hope. It’s out of my hands. A tree by a river, I sat stagnant you moved on to a better place, a better time without me. I’m so sorry that I never made you feel like life was worth living, pills aren’t forgiving. Life goes on, well I don’t wanna. I’m afraid of getting attached, I’m afraid of getting involved. I wait too long and now you’re better off somewhere I hope. You’re so far out of my hands. I’m afraid of moving on. I’m afraid of forgetting the events that led to a body by the river.

Autumn Leaves

What would you say if I said that I thought today would be a great day to get lost in a forest, the trees leave a trail for us. Stumbling through the branches nobody else could catch us no not if they tried. Falling from this tree I fell in love. The leaves touch your face as I wish I would have You will leave as Autumn tends to do, maybe you’ll be back in a year, I’ll just have to wait and see if you even saw me at all. I’m still sitting here through winter and the fall of snow, I’ll be the first snowman of them all. The snow was just starting to melt when suddenly I felt feelings forI’m forgetting. Was it you or the one you’re standing next to? Too many of them crowd up my head. Maybe it was you a year ago, feelings change just like the snow. They’ll be there for a few months watch them go, and I’m sitting on this tree stump all alone. You will leave as Autumn tends to do, maybe you’ll be back in a year, I’ll just have to wait and see if you even saw me at all. I’m still sitting into spring, listen to the birds sing. What do they sing? They sing.